It all started with the day one week before..
After the first pitch day, school officially starts. But After two weeks of going everyday the latenight four-hour class, I already extremely exhausted, and really lost with the crazy amount of information I receive.
So one week before, after spending 4 hours just thought about what’s the identity of myself and all these long sectors of how you plan to organize your project and for your one-year course and blablabla…. my head just exploded at least for that night…
And now, When I look back to the time, which I was allowed to spend on that class to actually think by myself and think for myself, I fell much more grateful than before. And moreover, I got to know other people’s thoughts at the same time. So no wonder I came out of class feeling almost exploded inside with all the things mixed together.
But unfortunately although i understand now the feeling I had with this mixture of thoughts never changed, and it felt as if I got stuck in misty frog which I could never get out. I was totally lost, in this confusion.
So I went back home, ask myself, why I came here? why I choose this exotic foreign place instead some place I am familiar with? Why the hell did I choose to come here 6 month even before the master starts, so that I can struggle my life with a language I never knew before and basically all things much harder to understand?
So now that one & only, simple easy question is —
Why I am here?
Somebody please answer me…